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Alrighty, What do I have to tell you? Well first the Scary News.

My neighbor is a creep. I was going to tell you the whole story, but I am supressing that and can't bring myself to actually tell the full story. Let's just say that he didn't just want help writing a letter. And I can't really explain it through LJ, and that sucks because I don't want to scare you into thinking that he raped me or anything (because he didn't) but he definitely took advantage of me and it was definitely a scary thing, and I definitely don't feel comfortable going home, but I don't know what's going to happen now (it just happened yesterday) but I have good friends here who are taking care of me and making sure I'm okay, and so I'm in the process of taking care of it as we speak so don't worry I'll be fine! AND MY MOTHER DOESN'T KNOW YET! 

NOW THE GOOD NEWS:

I bought a beautiful black dress to wear to the halloween party! Now I just need matching accessories, and I'll be set!! I'm so excited it's a GORGEOUS DRESS!!

You all should come visit me, because me and my friends know how to show people a good time! And we have a weird potato tradition you need to partake in!  Okay I'm getting distracted by friends and facebook so I'll end it there...

Tonight my dad took me to see "Vicky Christina Barcelona" it was really good. It was Woody Allen, I love Woody Allen. I haven't seen a lot by him so i'm not like an expert or anything, I just love everything I've seen by him. (Which is VCB, Match Point and  Scoop... and they all have Scarlett Johannsen... hmmm)

Anyway other than that i just wanted to say, that I'm finally nervous about something, which is not finding the welcome desk in the airport....  and now that I"m nervous I can't sleep hence the 12 am LJ post...

 ...But I am happily unaware of the fact that no one cares and truly believe that I am amazing enough for someone to stumble across this randomly and find some sense of joy from it. .............................. Okay maybe not the second part as much, but a girl can dream right? 

The point is two good things happened today amidst all the BAD. 

Number 1. I finished Persuasion, and for hose of you fond of adventure and intrigue and scandal and lust.... Don't read it. But for those who are more practical, like myself, and have interest in character and clever narration of seemingly pointless events, this my friends is the book for you. If you can struggle through the first half you'll absolutely love the second and it will make you feel all warm and tingly inside. But I don't want to give away too much! 

Speaking of Warm and Tingly...

Number 2.  We Watched Sabrina tonight. ahhh Sabrina. Now despite what kind of movie person you are everyone needs to see at least one Audrey Hepburn Movie. If you like Comedy "How to Steal A Million" Drama "Two For the Road" Documentary "Gardens of the World with Audrey Hepburn" Romance "Sabrina" Or "Roman Holiday" And if you like weird indie flicks, "Breakfast at Tiffany's" There are others of course, but those are the ones that I have actually seen, and can recommend. Oh and if you like Horror, I would Recommend Rear Window, Alfred Hitchcock, absolutely genius, not Audrey, but Grace Kelly, so close.  Anyway BACK ON TRACK, now if you've recently seen my facebook profile you will know that I refer to my near departure to Paris as me as Audrey and therefore can infer how much the movie means to me. Well watching it tonight just made my heart flutter. I LOVE Sabrina, she is one of MY FAVORITE characters ever, and to see this movie again right now just made me absolutely sparkly and hopeful, and it cheered me up a little although not enough to change my facebook status...


Still angry and disappointed, 
But becoming slightly renewed, 
and feeling the need to sign off like a letter, 
Forever Marchelle

I don't know if this is actually what's going on in their heads but right now my parents are doing a very good job of making it seem like they don't believe I can succeed on my own. They've been so supportive all along and now they're showing the littlest bit of doubt. I think they have the best motives but it doesn't feel that way. It would be nice for them to say "We have faith in you Marchelle" "You can do whatever you set your mind to" , but they don't.

But I guess in this way, I have more motivation, you know to prove them wrong. i'm going to do it, I'm going to succeed and not just  to "make my mother happy" I'm going to do it for me. and only me. actually me and anyone else who has been told they can't do it without their mother, or by themselves. I'm doing this for you too, because I say you can. I have faith in you. Go chase your dreams, and succeed! Do it for yourself, and do it for me. 

Oh and for Grandpa Miller, who is the only one, I feel, really is happy for me. And is helping me in so many ways, I'm doing this for you too. and Thank you.

Well, I wasn't planning on actually updating today because it wasn't nearly as productive or interesting as yesterday but I feel the need to comment on the society of what we call home: Colorado Springs. 

Denise and I were putting up posters for the Cab and The Hush Sound concert on Friday (if you're reading this go!) and generally commenting on the amount of emo in COS. Well I must say that all the conservatism of the area is having some adverse affect on the youth of this town. This was drawn to my attention when I was surfing the library website like I often do (... which is a little contradictory to my point but anyways...) and I just put season one of Sex and the City on hold. I've also had the Rocky Horror Picture Show on hold for a while too now. when I went to see the queue length, I was a little surprised. I expected after the movie that there would be a wait of like 50 on SATC but it was only 3. More shocking was the fact that the queue for RHPS was 10! More people in this town are watching (or want to watch) the 80s movie full of sin and debauchery over the more recent and more classy version of sin and debauchery. I don't know if this really makes sense but although Sex and The City can be pretty racy at time it does not include a song called "Sweet Transvestite." And I can't imagine our lovely parents putting tRHPS on hold at PPLD so that leaves those awkward grandmothers who have no problems talking about sex and teens... 

Anyway that was my general observation on life in this weird place we live in.